I almost had a bad day :( but I am happy now :)

Uff today morning i opened up my dashboard only to find my blog missing :( I got hell scared HEART ATTACK :P both my blogs GONE :O . In panic i changed my passwords i thought it got hacked and someone deleted all my accounts :(. Almost my whole world resides in here and that got deleted :O ... worst of it the solutions from blogger help wasn't helping :( it asked my to click on " show all " button which isn't there on my dashboard at all . I almost made my mind set to make a whole new blog all over again.
But Luck worked after many hits and trials just now when i relogged in :D I found my both blogs :) yay !! me happy happy again :)


(Update on request from Suruchi)
Just a note of steps I took while all this happened:

1) I didn't get any error. It was just when I opened my dashboard it displayed nothing it asked me to CREATE A BLOG as according to it I did not have a single blog.

2) I logged in logged out several times in different browsers firefox , chrome and internet explorer... to check if i had logged in with some other password or id or some different browser could help but to no avial. Then I went to google help which suggested articles like
"I can't find my blog "

No help again. I changed my password to make sure there has been no hacking.

3) Obviously I serached google for my problem and came to these links
mysteriously vanishing blogs and restore deleted blog
which asked me to click on "Show all" button on dashboard but as you can see in the below pic I couldn't locate a show all button ?? anywhere? So again no help there too.


4) Last I posted my query on "help forum" which received no answer :P.

5) Finally i made my mind to make up a whole new blog. I just felt may be either there has been a technical goof up or there must have been a hacker who deleted all my stuff and i logged out everything.

6) After about 30 mins when i tried opening my blog again ... Voila everything came back :D yipee it was like finding a lost one :P

So well this was it may be it was sheer bad luck or good luck later that everything got restored by itself :D.

If in case you have trouble try your luck like mine. :)
adios

Happy Diwali and some sharing :)

Most often i write up about serious stuff , so i guess it is this little time i'd let my fellow bloggers see a bit of my world :). All rangolis made by me this diwali :) had a dozen pics but uploaded a few only :P and the house is my sweet home. And the last one is me and my pretty pretty diwali dress. :D

Happy Diwali to all of you . May the coming year be peaceful and prosperous for all of you :).

Forgive Yourself

Life is a journey we all participate in and follow an infallible path of learning. Learning cannot be separated as right or wrong it is mere absorbing knowledge and knowledge is completeness. So if knowledge is complete it cannot be good or bad. it is human virtues which resurrect them according to their usefulness with time.

Human beings grasp and absorb hundreds of things from the time we are born, we are expected to judge or be judged according to our actions. So strong is the capacity of these actions or karma that they make us eligible for heaven and hell. Right or wrong rules , following or not following them can make us good or bad.

We live daily through hundreds of actions through our thoughts. Every thought we create forces us to actions and delivers results. Sometimes knowingly and sometimes unknowingly we make mistakes , we participate in wrong doings, we create ill feelings basically we go against the inherent nature of social being that is love and peace.

Whether you speak harshly with your mother or you steal something or you kill somebody etc all these actions are devoid of love and peace therefore somewhere inside us we create a feeling called Guilt. It is quiet debatable whether somebody who commits a heinous crime should be forgiven or not by the society if it would keep or destroy social life , but today we would talk only about "self guilt" and learning to forgive oneself.

Apart from what society sees as crime we keep doing actions that create a sense of guilt or helplessness inside us. For example being rude to someone, being angry at someone, not appreciating somebody's affection, etc. We try to ignore them or find reasons , explanations and try to justify ourselves for the wrong doing and yet we do not feel like letting it go. And each day you add on a new pile of guilt.

When you are free from guilt , you feel peace inside. The most important thing is realizing , realizing is good it is a base for a positive change. It tells you to take action of your responsibility and makes you a better person. Yes there may be mistakes for which you cannot even go back and say sorry , no matter how much you try you cannot mend the heart you have broken. But you can promise you won't break another heart and this is a good change.

Yesterday has already passed and you cannot change what has happened, you don't even know if life will give you another opportunity to overcome that guilt but accepting your mistake makes you aware of the good inside you. It reminds you that your consciousness is alive and is ready to protect you. On creating guilt it warns us that we have broken a rule of our code of beliefs, values or behaviors. It alerts us to the fact that we are acting against something important of ourselves. At those moments it helps us to observe and question what is real, true, important and even sacred in our life and for us.
Let go , some mistakes have happened because others were meant to receive their end of karma for which you had to add on a karma. You cannot have a control on others emotions but can at least take responsibility of your actions. Punishment will only make things bitter for us it would be like living with a dead body. Isn't it better to live with the memory of the gone than hold on to a decaying body??

It is necessary to learn to respect our self therefore being clear inside gets very important. Let the essence of learning stay and let pain go. Let the guilt go and learn to forgive yourself.

adios

Health within

Health is not just about being physically healthy, sometimes without us knowing some things creep up inside us with our thoughts they stay , create loops of similar patterns and then we realize this only when people tell us "you have changed".

Here is a list of few questions that will help you determine if you are healthy from within.

1. Are you always worrying?

2. Are you unable to concentrate because of unrecognized reasons?

3. Are you continuously unhappy without any particular reason?

4. Do you lose your temper easily and often?

5. Do you have wide fluctuations in your moods from depression to happiness, back to

depression, which weaken you?

6. Are you troubled by regular insomnia (sleeplessness)?

7. Do you continuously dislike being with people?

8. Are you upset if the routine of your life is disturbed?

9. Do your children consistently get on your nerves?

10. Are you irritable quite often and constantly bitter?

11. Are you afraid without any particular reason?

12. Do you feel that you are always right and other people always wrong?

13. Do you have numerous physical aches and pains for which no doctor can find a physical cause?

If answers to any of these questions if definitely "yes". May be then it is time to renew and cleanse your thought pattern.

Remember 9/11 for Swami Vivekananda

WELCOME ADDRESS - Chicago, Sept 11, 1893

Sisters and Brothers of America,

It fills my heart with joy unspeakable to rise in response to the warm and cordial welcome which you have given us. I thank you in the name of the most ancient order of monks in the world; I thank you in the name of the mother of religions, and I thank you in the name of millions and millions of Hindu people of all classes and sects.

My thanks, also, to some of the speakers on this platform who, referring to the delegates from the Orient, have told you that these men from far-off nations may well claim the honor of bearing to different lands the idea of toleration. I am proud to belong to a religion which has taught the world both tolerance and universal acceptance. We believe not only in universal toleration, but we accept all religions as true. I am proud to belong to a nation which has sheltered the persecuted and the refugees of all religions and all nations of the earth. I am proud to tell you that we have gathered in our bosom the purest remnant of the Israelites, who came to Southern India and took refuge with us in the very year in which their holy temple was shattered to pieces by Roman tyranny. I am proud to belong to the religion which has sheltered and is still fostering the remnant of the grand Zoroastrian nation. I will quote to you, brethren, a few lines from a hymn which I remember to have repeated from my earliest boyhood, which is every day repeated by millions of human beings: "As the different streams having their sources in different paths which men take through different tendencies, various though they appear, crooked or straight, all lead to Thee."

The present convention, which is one of the most august assemblies ever held, is in itself a vindication, a declaration to the world of the wonderful doctrine preached in the Gita: "Whosoever comes to Me, through whatsoever form, I reach him; all men are struggling through paths which in the end lead to me." Sectarianism, bigotry, and its horrible descendant, fanaticism, have long possessed this beautiful earth. They have filled the earth with violence, drenched it often and often with human blood, destroyed civilization and sent whole nations to despair. Had it not been for these horrible demons, human society would be far more advanced than it is now. But their time is come; and I fervently hope that the bell that tolled this morning in honor of this convention may be the death-knell of all fanaticism, of all persecutions with the sword or with the pen, and of all uncharitable feelings between persons wending their way to the same goal.


The World's Parliament of Religions has become an accomplished fact, and the merciful Father has helped those who labored to bring it into existence, and crowned with success their most unselfish labor.

My thanks to those noble souls whose large hearts and love of truth first dreamed this wonderful dream and then realized it. My thanks to the shower of liberal sentiments that has overflowed this platform. My thanks to this enlightened audience for their uniform kindness to me and for their appreciation of every thought that tends to smooth the friction of religions. A few jarring notes were heard from time to time in this harmony. My special thanks to them, for they have, by their striking contrast, made general harmony the sweeter.

Much has been said of the common ground of religious unity. I am not going just now to venture my own theory. But if any one here hopes that this unity will come by the triumph of any one of the religions and the destruction of the others, to him I say, "Brother, yours is an impossible hope." Do I wish that the Christian would become Hindu? God forbid. Do I wish that the Hindu or Buddhist would become Christian? God forbid.

The seed is put in the ground, and earth and air and water are placed around it. Does the seed become the earth, or the air, or the water? No. It becomes a plant. It develops after the law of its own growth, assimilates the air, the earth, and the water, converts them into plant substance, and grows into a plant.
Similar is the case with religion. The Christian is not to become a Hindu or a Buddhist, nor a Hindu or a Buddhist to become a Christian. But each must assimilate the spirit of the others and yet preserve his individuality and grow according to his own law of growth.

If the Parliament of Religions has shown anything to the world, it is this: It has proved to the world that holiness, purity and charity are not the exclusive possessions of any church in the world, and that every system has produced men and women of the most exalted character. In the face of this evidence, if anybody dreams of the exclusive survival of his own religion and the destruction of the others, I pity him from the bottom of my heart, and point out to him that upon the banner of every religion will soon be written in spite of resistance: "Help and not fight," "Assimilation and not Destruction," "Harmony and Peace and not Dissension."

By Swami Vivekananda

(Lets remember Swami Vivekananda once again in a world where every hand of each man is needed to make the world a better place to live in)

Courtesy :image http://www.acchikhabar.com/

Jan Lokpal death in Government hands

Here is something we all should educate ourselves with about the Lokpal Bill. It is an answer to those who feel Anna should have waited and waited.
Today I heard a news that in Mumbai crowd shoved back members of political parties carrying their respective flags, crowd peacefully stressed it is time for only INDIAN flag to show up and no other political flags. We don't need cheaters against cheaters we need India against cheaters.

Please educate yourself about the stress India against Corruption had to go before they hit the roads. Click on the picture.

Minutes of meeting as of 30th May 2011






JAI HIND !

TIME - My Healer ???

They say time is a self healer to many things. I sometimes sit back and think why does time has so much power to heal something and why do we have to wait for the time to cross by for our healing?
I never understood the exact meaning because i always thought each individual is different and has different needs depending on what they perceive the world to be, their healing periods can vary too from a few days to a few months to a few years or forever. Then how come people say each other time will heal everything. Let time pass by and everything will settle.




It is true that every action in nature is subject to certain laws which explains that its disturbance period will settle within a certain period of time. So yes partially true that every disturbance does settle after a certain time period. But the problem is to bring that time period within a human lifespan frame. For eg. disturbance caused by a pebble in water lasts for a few seconds , disturbance of a big boulder in water lasts up to few minutes , disturbances like volcanoes fire etc can last up to few days and disturbances in universe last up to many light years. All these are disturbances of different nature dependent on few laws which are explicable of time of settlement.

But human emotions ? they are not subjected to natural laws , they are subjected to treatment. Healing through any hurt, pain or sadness is through the memories of an individual. When an individual has nothing else to do than to repent on the same loss over and over again the period of healing extends, it is like RELIVING the same pain every time you think of it.

Time is nothing but a collection of memories over a human lifespan. Memories over one another overshadow older memories and bring live colours to the newer one's and that is how the healing process works faster. Time cannot be subjected to someone's healing untill the person is interested in overcoming the pain. Time cannot heal me, my thoughts will. The more i let my senses grasp things different from the older pain , more the healing time will reduce. May be that is why God has given us a living machine(body) for whose needs we need to keep working and keep forgetting our past.
Time is merely an ageing process physically but it cannot be my healer untill i want it to be.

So next time someone tells me Time will heal me ... I'd say no I WOULD.

Adios

Please call for Jan Lokpal Bill

Yesterday i got a message on cell :

"Ek zaroori suchna

Bharat Sarkar ne 1 sharat rakhi he ke 25 CRORES logo ka support ho to hi hum LOKPAL BILL pass karenge.

(And for this)

Please niche likhe no. pe CALL kare

022-61550789 (TOLL FREE)
call apne aap 1 ring ke baad kat jayega aur aapko thank you msg ayega.

1 Jagruk Bhartiya hone ka parichay de & friends ko 4rwd kare "


Honestly on 1st look i thought it was some hoax but when i searched on net and went to http://www.indiaagainstcorruption.org/ and saw that indeed the Lokpal bill needs support.

I did call the number and resgistered my support. It did not cost me anything. Also made my parents do the same even with landlines. And a Thank you message did come.

It is not a HOAX please support the mission. It could be your way of doing a bit for this and Being answerable to next generation.

Thank you

Ball of Failure

Failure is an intricate part of all our lives and irrespective of who we are and where we stand we all have experienced some or other kinds of failures or per say faced with a situation where we stood helpless and could not do what we should have. Personally i don't believe in failures or success that again takes a long route of believes and disbelieves that you may have about these but the point is that failures to an average man in indispensable.




Considering failure as a BALL, what comes after one has been through failure is the game to pass it to another person weak and helpless who keeps the ball and suffers through its pain. Sometimes amazingly the Ball is held by the same person and sometimes is passes through many people like chain.

This game is really interesting and the ball is super powerful it starts being unwanted and at the end of the chain is accepted willingly. It reminds me of a law of physics of electricity -- Electricity or electrical energy always flows through the path that provides lower resistance than compared to the path which provides it higher resistance (Please bend the words accordingly i by word do not remember the law it essence is important to me). This law of energy flow tells me how from a person who resists the idea of being the defaulter (higher resistance) passes the ball of failure to a person who meekly resists the same idea (lower resistance) , as it is no one wants to accept this ball but at the end of every chain there would be someone or the other meek and weak who without any actual responsibility would end up taking the charge of this ball and keep sulking through their life as "His Failure".

Take this small eg. Imagine a group of kids in school or a gang who dislike one particular kid who according to their standards achieves something special or some special attention he is not ought to. They sulk in their feeling of failure and then find a way to push their failure towards him tease him, hit him , hurt him , insult him and keep on trying these things till the other kid actually feels weak and accepts failure.

Ball of failure is a dangerous game for weak hearted it leads to anger , depression and even suicides. However everytime a ball of failure is started it swerves around strong minds. People who know that every act of failure is self created and actually honestly someone else's failure can never be thrust on anyone else. And when people like this accept this ball they end the game, they store the ball as their treasured object in their Armoire of Experiences. That is how the game ends.

adios

You have a CHOICE

Life is a powerful journey an empowering journey that is woven around us by our choices. Every second when we do something (or don't do anything) is dictated by the choice we make. People make choices based on various things around them ask a little child what you want to be in 90% cases he chooses to do what his parents do and those 10% who choose to do something different also choose to strengthen themselves during their own adventurous journey. But the point is all Choose.

We have a choice. From birth ..a baby chooses his time of birth grows and pushes his way out, baby chooses to cry for his food, baby chooses to find a way to crawl and walk. I have encountered people who had the worst of situations from the time of their birth but they have chosen not to regret not to cry not to loose , it took them time and struggle ....their share of hardships but they overcame everything with their courage. Every time they chose courage over fear they radiated success.

Sometimes i wonder how to define success. Many home makers time and again create a fact for themselves that they are unsuccessful, they have failed in what they wanted to achieve that they have no identity for themselves. Once again it is matter of choice, when they were getting married they chose to coyly follow their husbands irrespective of the bad treatment meted to them so they chose fear. When they repeated the thoughts of hopelessness and unappreciated thoughts about self they chose negativeness and self deterioration now they question why am i not valued ??

Success should create and aura of happiness around yourself , make you feel appreciated valued and loved. Now if at every step we let others decide whether I am happy valued or loved or not would i be successful ? We made a choice again of giving every one the right to prove us wrong.
Our choices make every bit of life that we want to create for ourselves, over the time i have understood one thing the power of belief that every self guru author talks about is nothing but making a choice. Belief can never work wonders with anyone if only you thing and not make choices according to it.
Let us say you want everyone to love you. You work on the belief of it and create thoughts of every one being happy with you.But when you see yourself in front of mirror you ridicule your body, your face, your complexion etc . Which belief should work you think ? Can thoughts work if you do not put them to practice ?

Yes choices may go right or wrong. They can make us happy or upset us. But at the end of the day you know you have done the right thing and are ready to take the responsibility of your actions because it was your choice no one pushed you into it. Facing life or running away is again a choice in your life.

adios :)

Grandparents past and present

I love chatting with my Grandpa(naanaji) he has always been a very scientific man and talking with him at any point of time is very much a pleasure :) we discuss anything under the sun from physics to genetics, from history to huts, from food to fatigue anything. Many young men and women of todays generation are deprived of this feeling may be because they donot find a platform to talk or discuss things or may be because when they sit down to talk they dont have a common topic on which their opinions are same.



Its not always that easy to talk to him without bringing the past and present comparision. Just today i had a chat with my Grandfather who felt sad on the thought that today no one cares about old things , new generation does not value a thing of the past and that religious things which were done for a particular meaning in the past are now done in ostentate & meaningless fashion. I knew where the track was going and i knew within a few seconds he'd recall everything of the past and be upset about it for another 1 hr after the phone call. This is something that frightens us or disturbs us while talking to elders because we know we want to explain and we do have an explaination but someho cannot convince them. So to avoid this we avoid interacting at all.

Every man and woman in this world has a right to have different opinions. Comparision of the past and present is inevitable. Neither past nor present is completely correct, we live in a frame of time where past merges with present every second. As the concept of time machine in physics said to view the past you have to catch the reflected light of the present that spreads into the universe and replay it.. similarly every action that we do now Right NOW is as much past as actions done a day ago or 100 days ago because they cannot be repeated in exact fashion in that exact frame of time. :) So there is no difference between past and present it is the same only the duration shorter or longer makes us say its past and its presnt. (oops !! That was too much physics & philosophy :P i'd come back to some normal language)

What i wanted to say is we cannot push our grandparents to understanding that they were past and we are present. Instead we should accept the difference that they are stateing and expand our vision to see why they hold that difference. In my case i asked him a number of questions as to why he felt reading religious books and saving the past was important. His actions directed me to the feeling that "the old has knowledge and experience that is capable of keeping the young safe and happy, the old wants to save us and the young avoids that". This non transfer of valuable knowledge perturbed him & not the non following of rituals which intially seemed to be the situation . :) So calmly i was able to explain him my way, which did not get into the hussels and bussels of rituals rather it was good talk about knowledge transfer from old to young. He calmed down and i knew he wont think about it later on.

Avoiding this situation could have been easier to avoid the friction but it would have also kept me unaware of the feelings that an elderly goes through that even i would go through sometime later on, it would have kept me unaware of the happiness that i felt after solving his thoughts and it would have kept me unaware from a Learning today that past and present is lovely there honestly is no difference in them but only in our thoughts.

Please dont ignore Grandparents they are a lovely blessing to us. You need not heed to every word they say but you can slowly learn to explain things to them if you really see why and for whom they say things.

adios :)

Why we do things unknowingly

Sometimes quiet unaware we pick up traits of many things around us and keep pretending to act like that till long. Most often the trouble comes when we out trait hinders or hurts anyone else. I stumbled upon this topic because last week i had been watching too many of english movies and before i could realise i started saying "oh shit" and "what the f***" in everything almost every sentence and suddenly i was like why am i doing this ??

Everything around us affects us i mean everything. From words to wisdom , from cry to courage , from movies to motive and from love to lust. I know we dont chose everything that surrounds us but being human beings we do have the courage and understanding to control our minds that subconciously sets our behavioural pattern to adapting surroundings. Nature and behaviour of a man is set and defined by himself and himself only, sometimes we hear our inner voice saying "why am i doing this ..i know its wrong" but we dont stop.

Some people find it easier to categorise one behaviour as good and bad to prevent themselves from repeating the same like if you consider violence bad then you would prevent yourself from repeating the same but if you somewhere in your heart hold gallore for violence or the person who conducts violence you are bound to repeat it at some point or other... no matter what you do to stop it.

Even in a positive frame of mind one can sway away but it returns back to place when you know its wrong. I think there are a few traits a positive mind always follows and once you drift away from these you'd know something is not so correct inside you.

With +ve mindset...

• You are more creative.
• You think more clearly.
• You strengthen your ability to concentrate on quality thoughts that in turn produce good feelings.
• You acquire more self-respect and respect towards others.
• You generate the ability of self-control and strength in difficult situations.
• You overcome pressures and worries more easily.
• You experience peace, calm, serenity and happiness.

I have taken a break from movie watching for now and feeling better being back to myself. For next time i have decided to use an advice of a friend whenever you are tempted for something you know is wrong keep saying yourself "what is wrong is wrong".

I am not trying to decide for anyone else but me so i'd use this idea.

adios :)

Can Love and Freedom co exist ?

When we think of love .. do we think of freedom? Yes we do. It is why today's generation has found various forms of loving that can help them preserve their freedom. But yet somewhere down the line they know when you are in a relationship be it live in or open or marriage or whatever you are bounded to an extend and your freedom is compromised and more so if you are really committed.

So Can love and freedom not co exist ? Yes. To reach this state in a relationship great wisdom is required. Most people love one another and tie one another down. Often when we look for love we see it as a means of self recognition of our inner values our belief system. This requirement motivates us to praise and appreciate the other person who comes close to the picture of perfection.
But we forget the other person is not perfect. :) He or she are also part of the same journey the same search as you are.



We all have an emotional need for love and we are afraid of being left unsatisfied. In our search to fill our need we compromise and deceive ourselves with unsuitable partners. Many people allow the love of another person to define their personality to such a point that, if they are rejected, they lose any sense of who they are and of the purpose they have in life. Often the relationship is colored, through one of the partners or both, by fear.

To Free ourselves and to true make your love meaningful we need to overcome our fear or rejection. We need to have a strong heart, a selfless and self contented heart , a heart that love his ownself with a meaning, a heart that is capable of keeping his surroundings happy, a heart that can accept rejection. A heart that has given up old beliefs and negative thoughts, that has overcome bitterness of past , free from grudges , free from heart breaks ....... A heart that is at peace with itself let your heart feel light only then can you reap FAITH. And where Faith and Peace survive there's no place for fear. Your love and freedom will flourish in a stronger and happier heart.

adios :)

Why Fear ?

Board exams have started and they sure are a stressed time for students they feel everything of their life would be decided in these few hours and partially the world has created a notion that it true. I sometimes wonder if each and everyone's life has changed completely after this one exam ? Rather it wasn't the first time we were told life depends on this or that, our lives changed several times it did not depend on only how we fared in the 12 th. Each of our action has the capacity of changing things around us few of them have been exaggerated by man kind and few of them have been demeaned.




What causes us the fear of some life changing experience is within us. Subconsciously feeded into our minds. Subconscious is a vague word for many so i would rather like to call it my " belief system ". It is easier and simpler to understand. My beliefs they tell me what i like ? what i hate ? from colours to charateristics, from tv to trauma & from life to love , my mind registers my likes and dislikes my reasons of why they are my likes and dislikes. Slowly and steadily as we grow up we stand to support and strengthen it as our belief.


Like I have a belief that i believe in souls. You might not , which means we have seperate "BELIEF SYSTEMS" one that works for you so you defend that and the one that works for me i defend that. Here comes the clash or difference or fear. Our Belief systems are our identity and when we over burden ourselves with it, it becomes our ego :)


Anyways I will always have lots to say. Here is where i felt Fear comes from :

The desire to be recognized, appreciated and valued.

Experiences of the past that have produced disappointment, insecurity, worry or emotional or mental exhaustion.

Attachments and dependencies generate fear.

The habit of seeing situations and people in a negative way.

Dishonesty - When you have done things that you know are not right, you know there will be negative after effects, and this provokes fear within.

The ego being afraid to 'die'. It justifies itself and resists. We wear masks that cover our true identity. We become selfish.

adios :)

A happy day for me :)

:) a Happy day for me :) Its a day that reminds me how lucky I am and how lucky i am to be surrounded by such sweet people :) Touch wood :)

Just a small prayer to God .. help me be kind and loving to my family and friends, keep them safe and let me be with them forever . Guide me at every path of my life, protect me from being and doing evil . Be with me always :)

Love
Tua :)

An Year withdraws....A New begins

New Year is around the corner and its a fresh new year 2011 to begin with :)

I am not keeping any resolutions for me new year is not a time for resolutions ...because i have always believed that an year is a long long time to renew and review yourself. For everytime you do an action the reactions are spontaneous then why wait for one whole year and bring new resolutions ?

For me New year is the time when i review what i have learned all through the year because only an year is a long time that gives you a broader view of smaller happenings. I personally prefer to go to bed every night with a small recap of my daily actions to know what and where i have been wrong, to recall when my action, when my words, when my intentions went wrong and what i could have done in its place. But at the end of the year i know God's vision is mightier than anything and everything.

A few learning that i have from this year:

• I have learned that an hurried work is necessarily not perfect. And a perfect work is of no use if not done on time.
• I have learned that every time what you desire for might not be the best for you even though it may look like the best at that moment.
• I have learned that there has to be someone in your life who should know what you really need and who you really are, because we often forget about ourselves.
• I have learned that distance is only physical, love is eternal and it has to be there forever.If souls connect everything else falls into place.
• I have learned that relationships have a deeper meaning than what is seen superficially.
• I have learned that work has greater meaning than money. Money can buy you everybody but it stays with nobody.
• I have learned that life's charm is in the tiniest and the biggest things we do. Mediocre acts fall on neither side.
• I have learned that my happiness is with my loved ones and i am incomplete without them.
• I have learned that my anger is not really my anger its my care and to be true very people understand it.
• I have learned that God knows what is best for me and he will hold my hand safely even if i act stubborn.
• I have learned that my trust on God has increased several folds i find him the reason for everything.
• I have learned that true friends do not really need to know everything, they just be there for everything.
• I have learned that getting upset on anyone else other than self is nothing but folly. NO ONE no one other than your own self can give anyone a chance to make you upset.
• I have learned that trusting the right ones is the most essential. Rest all can do without you.
• I have learned that  i am happy only because i have a happy safe and smiling set of family and friends.
• At the end of everything there is always a Happy beginning If you Really want it desperately want it. It will walk straight up to you.

Thank you God for being with me and guiding me every second. :)
Always be with me :) Come new year or not be with me....

Identity Crisis

By this time several debates have been held about the verdict at " Ayodhya - the disputed land " on what judgement is right, what is expected, what implications, who would feel what etc etc. The whole of past week went by listening to advices of eminent members everywhere from tv to newspaper... I wondered what else was left to be discussed :)

Honestly speaking it really did not matter to me what decision was about to come, whether a mandir was to be built or a mazjid did not really bother me. It bothered those who had legitimate insecurities of their existence dependent on the disputed land. What bothered me more was how long are we going to keep getting bothered or scared about these kind of things ??

Even as 2000 AD started which was termed as the so called "21st century.." Digital era , E era and so on. We witnessed how a powerful democracy of the world America voted on religious fundementals namely rejected the concept that they had then termed as "Islamic Terrorism" , 10 years down the line... going back on their words they chose to undo the damage they have already done to the world... by building a mosque on Ground Zero. Unfortunately they have already pushed several thousands of young lads into the deep grave of terrorism, which then to these young lads was the only way to save their identity of religion.

Things have not changed from long 2000 years back or to say 5000 years back ( or even older) when our religious books or religion came into existence, needs were limited to a few several things namely food, clothing, money and faith seemed the only way of connecting to the good within us. So that we can know our purpose of living is to derive the content of happiness from within and not outside. But eventually our age old habit of forcing our beliefs on everyone else overshadowed it. It was still on a bearable edge until came the time when our faiths took shapes of concrete on the face of earth. Prayer houses, faith buildings turned into gatherings of people who had same belief system and each believer used his own way to expand his belief into others. Nobody knows why suddenly people of different faiths started to worry about expanding their faith or who started expanding it first or whether it was forced or amiable but what comes sure into this picture is that who ever did this did it only for one reason and that was "Identity Crisis".

Most often when people meet or greet you and start talking about themselves, they begin by identifying themselves to you "name" is one such thing. Queerly each of our names which could have been a mere identification turned into an identity when attached to our faith. Our "Names" "Surnames" "Village or Town" or "State" or somewhat forgotten these days "Lineage or Gotra" each of these things makes us what we are especially for those who have no other way to assert themselves in front of others. Today we identify Ratan Tata for TATA industries or Dhirubhai Ambani for Reliance industries or Subhash Chandra Bose and Bhagat Singh for their valour as Freedom fighters...do we identify them for being only Parsi or Gujrati or Bengali or Punjabi ?? Many don't but also Many do.

World over people are being subjected through a phase where they are being churned for their identity, where people are craving for being accepted by the larger lot. People want to know what they have in superiority that can be a part of their identity too even if they do not have a pint of their trait in themselves. Dress, fashion, style, latest gadgets etc are merely a superficial part of that same identity crisis of which religion, faith , customs, traditions are an abstruse part. We tend to cling to our identity for being appreciated, for being recognized and for being understood.

Identity crisis is an excuse we use for our lack of courage to pursue and achieve something. Even a small thing like "I am a girl I expect some sympathy." is as much a lack of courage as much is " He lives in a metro obviously he would do better." every now and then you would find people grouping themselves into something for AN EXCUSE. An excuse to do away from a job, to keep failure at a bay, to hold someone else responsible for their failure so on and so forth. Identity crisis can be solved but first and foremost it needs a will, a dare that none of us yet have. We have chosen an easier path by solving through fists and hits than resolving through minds and spirits.

Religion and faith were build to bring us out of a problem to serve as a solution to give away identities to God and live lives as only human beings. But it is amusing thing to see that it is thy our faiths that has brought us to the same door of problems where we had once begun from.


Adios..
P.S May be next time i would come up with something lighter. Till then bear with my serious mode.
Thank you all :)

Before clock strikes.....Independence

Warning: Long post of a free and independent mind....no offence intended.

Here I am to write today on the eve before the independence day. Although I have nothing particular to write I know I’d start with nothing and would end up with many things. Today sittng in my bedroom and writing this down on the eve of 14th august sent down within me reminicense of the day just before independence. I am trying to imagine the feelings of people on that very day.. exactly what they must have felt, how much difference did they feel ? did they feel entirely a new world just after the clock stuck 12 ?

Today it is so easy for me to sit in a free world and share my feelings with completely unknown people all over the world. Looking forward to talk to them to know what they feel how they opinise my posts and share what is in my mind. What exactly must have been the situation 63 years ago just before the dawn of independence came. For those people who struggled for ages, got tortured limitlessly for no fault of theirs…how did their world change after independence? Was it only the idea of having a country free from seeing faces of goras? Did we hate just the “gora chamdi”?? or was it the idea of having a whole definion of having a country by your side? Or was it the idea that our children or their children will live in a free world away from the shackless of torture, away from the fear of being killed for their opinions, away from the fear of unknown penalties heaved on them???

On the eve of independence too I am sure there would have been many who would have thought that its futile to be free , their must have been many who must have thought that “ goron ki hukummat hi behtar thi”, there must have been many who would have thought that India will never make it big. And I am also sure there must have been many brave hearts many of them who would have replied them back with hope in their eyes , dreams and faith on their children i.e YOU AND I. Yes, you and I ..their children on whom they had immense faith and dreams in their hearts filled with pride, filled with the pride that their blood will not be any more divided by religions castes creed or colour , that the ideals of free INDIA will definitely come true. A land where no one none of their children will ever have to suffer pangs of hunger, where their children will care for one another and where they would be slaves to none. I take a gasp when I realise the burden of their dreams, I realise we are still so much slaves, I realise its so amazingly easy to struggle and achive something and so tough to maintain it. They have given us such a tough task so tough work and such a painful job of “believing in INDIA and its ideals and uphold its freedom.” So much tough the work is that there is a FRESH BREED of indians who (constantly) look at the “hukummats” of the goras all over the world and feel India will never make it big. Such a gigantic task it is. But unfortunately unlike the believers of Free India on independence day ..we do not have future generations to place our hopes on all we have is WE US and just OURSELVES and just the PRESENT.

When India got its freedom people understood that the nation belongs to “WE”. They had hopes because then it was the start, just the beginning. They could keep hopes from their future generations because they did their part and knew they might not be physically be able to complete the daunting task of maintaining India’s ideals. Unfortunately for them they did not explain us that their hopes shall live only when we all shall be WE. Unfortunately we cannot anymore put our work on the shoulders of our children anymore. Not because our children cannot do it but because what children learn, they learn from their parents and we have broken this link. We did not learn from their struggle and our children would not be able to learn from us too. Little by little we have broken this link. I am not blaming things on my generation neither the youth or the old I take the blame on myself. I who at many instances was unable to do little things for my country that I should have had. From little things like throwing garbage on streets or wasting water or petrol, to bigger things like being unable to react when my known ones ridiculed somebody based on caste or creed. I am hurt and I am sorry I feel sorry for all the disrespects I have shown to any of my fellow Indians , I am sorry for the pledge I took in my school felt insulted everytime I ignored it for sake of practicality. I have broken the link. The link of maintaining INDIA's freedom ideals.

So unfortunate is every incident that today I feel I should have been beaten with sticks for not being able to keep up to the expectations of my Freedom Parents (freedom fathers and mothers ). I wish there had been some wand of God that could have hit me at every mistake I made against my nation. Unfortunately there is no wand. For freedom the cane of God is our own conciousness, that which we have shunned (not sold unlike what is said). We have rebuked our good will so many times that the voice within has stopped responding. I now realise how important is punishments, a timely punishment irrespective of wether you are old or young punishments for every wrong is necessary. I wish there had been a few men amongst freedom fighters who would have never grown old and I wish they had every right to punish anybody they saw go against the ideals of Free India that they had so painfully achieved.

Today on the eve on 14th august I see two news running simultaneously in front of me a young lady in delhi who dashes a car when drunk and shows of her power by threatening to pay crores and I see another news when young tribal/adivasi women hunt down a man for selling desi sharab so that they can now have some money for their family. Two sets of women two sets of power and one person in front of tv looking hopelessly is me. I do not know what I can do right now to change these equations in India and I am sure many of us who read this will experience the same helplessness.

I watch pieces of painfull news I see on one hand scenes from leh where my fellow men, women and children are struggling to get back their lives on roads. On another hand I see my fellow men from kashmir on roads, they say they hate India. On one hand I see my brave army men loosing their lives to save us on border on another hand I see my fellow men who help infiltraters to kill our brave men on borders. On one hand I see pangs of hunger one another hand I see government official whose IT raid sprung 2crore gold from his drawer. I feel pained I cry and I feel helpless.

One important traitor who has a hand in everything of these pains is money corruption competition. Yes not just corruption but Money Corruption and Competition. The idea or notion of getting and keep getting more is injurious to you me our kids and our country. Corruption has not dropped from sky in our hearts of hearts many of us know who are corrupt , many of them are within us , it may be you yourself, your father, your relative, your friend,your friends father or may be our children etc who takes the bribe. Can we stop them ?? have we tried stopping them? Have we told them ever “papa I donot need a bike anymore please donot take bribes” ?? have we??.........have we stopped demanding ?? have the so called MNC’s stopped preaching lesser money and more satisfaction?? Have the wives told their husbands “I donot need another gold set??” …. Have we stopped demanding??Have we ever put a stop at our needs??

Most importantly have we ever made our known corrupt family members that we are ashamed that they take bribes??.

Many of us who are reading now can do two simple things. Two simplest of things that can save India and its future. And that is:

a) Identify corrupt people within us , like I said they are within us and we know them. Talk to them tell them lovingly to stop taking bribe(you would atleast know who takes a bribe within your family ? wont you?? Your very closed ones??). Make them feel ashamed of their bribes, make them feel bad. They would hit you scold you or ridicule you, stop talking to you but they would feel definitely feel bad atleast 1 in 10 times they would refuse a bribe and whoa that would be for your words. If each of us can do this think how much difference we can make to India with our constant effort within a decade.

b) We have tackled the existing generation now time to buck up the generation after us our children. This shouldnot be taught they would do as they see their parents if you and I can pledge to teach our kids that they should live with the essentials and be satisfied with what we have. Then neither will their wishes be the reason for us to take bribe nor in their own lives they will ever get corrupted.

Think of it here is a man who takes bribe you know him and he is the one responsible for you not getting your desired country (directly or indirectly). They are a part of corrupt mindset that is hurting me today shall hurt many more in the future. We have to KILL THIS MINDSET. His bribe might not effect you today but somebody’s bribe will……..and then we wil blame others again. Stop it now. Pledge just the two above points and practise them constantly. Things will change for sure.

Hopefully we will then never have to blame anybody nor will we have to ever feel burdened with dreams of independence. We will then celebrate freedom in real sense….

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I am adding a comment from my comment box because i think i could not explain my mind properly in my article. For a better and shorter picture i add my this comment from my comment box.

" hii.. and 1st of all thank you for liking the post :)
See I am not saying do not bribe i am not saying so because for not it is not a practical step .. we are surrounded by people who will take bribe no matter what they would never feel the guilt because they would justify their deeds for their needs for their familes ,inflation etc...
here is where i believe we can bring a change see if we keep waiting for a brilliant plan for a brilliant man for some brilliant day to come and cut it in one go it will never happen...
for the simple reason that we are a heard of people who like following people around us..

So the best place to hit hard corruption is at Heart NOT at Head..
People will stop taking bribes ONLY and ONLY when they feel ashamed of taking bribe..
THIS WILL NOT HAPPEN
with punishments
with police
with death sentence
with ill treatment

It will only happen with intention.Corrupt people are within us they have families, they are PARENTS to some children ... they are relatives to some of us...

Imagine a child walking up to his father and saying "Dad I hate it when you justify taking bribe for me,I do not want a new bike I can live without it but please dont take bribe next time."

This is something that will have a moral implication on the father. Every time we give away to a temptation and push our parents for giving it to us, we push them to get corrupted.
WE ARE THE CAUSE.
Imagine if this becomes a craze in India that every child, every wife keeps reminding this to his father or husband. Would a man not feel ashamed the next time he takes money???
He would..

So my point is simple,we give way to corruption everytime we like something temptational like gr8 clothes gr8 gadgets gr8 food... If our youth begins a craze to live life in a Simpler mode. WE TOO CAN ELIMINATE corruption without waiting for a BRILLIANT PLAN.

Now all we need is a plan to make this craze a hit.. :) simpler

Sorry the answer was a little too long...
i hope i could still explain a part of what was in my mind.. "

Ants

There is this huge fascination that I share with ants. :-) ever since I was a kid I was fond of using all my boring summer afternoons either in deep naps :P or watching ants their lines, the way they walk talk with their little antennas. Aww…all my afternoon I would get those small bits of sugar for them and lie them on their way :-) . Some people like feeding fishes some like feeding dogs some feed cows BUT I Love feeding ANTS :-)

I never hurt them but there’s something that fascinates me about them. I keep wondering how the world would be for them how they see the world do they ever realize how much hard work they put in for such a little distance of food. No they don’t. They travel with twist and turns of 50-60 cms what can be directly reached in 10 cms.

They would perhaps travel the periphery of our drawing room and presume it to be the whole world…what might be just 10 steps for you and me. We are so huge in comparison to them that we can twist them, kill them, hit them, sway them away from their lines, we can presume to be (at least) their God yet irrespective of whatever happens in their lines they keep working…

I remember listening to the story of grasshopper and an ant. And as a grown up today find such startling similarities between a Bhogi person who is attached to the deepest level to his life and a person who performs Nishkaam karma…

Ants might be a part of our jokes with elephants, rats, hares etc yet they seem to picture a sense of dignity when I think about them…

They are small really small some ants might even be deadly and dangerous (those found in forests) yet they command a sense of respect when I think about them…

Small humble and someone who performs his duties irrespective of how many problems one faces is a person who can command a sense of respect and dignity from all of us and yet ants do not care what we think of them. It still continues to work.

Today as an aware science student I know about many characteristics of ants. Their categories, their behavioral pattern, mothers ants, their hierarchical system, family pattern etc yet I chose to view them as a Pattern of Dedicated workers whose work is tons of time more important than any competition..

more important than any jealousy…

above any greed to get first (rather once a food is found an ant collects all others to share)…

outdoes any results at end…

An Ant is someone or a collective group of someone we should learn from or at least remember when in times of trouble. Well back to square one I think I better get up and feed the ants I can see one line round my room… let me see what they are up to now :-) or where they are up by now :-)…

adios

P.S Feed ants at your risk ... i don not risk feeding red ants or fire ants :P I am happy feeding them from safe distance. So keep safe and do not blame it on me :)

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Romantic Poem

I feel your hands turn cold

When you try being bold

Under the star studded sky

You smile dry

I hold your hands

Look into your eyes

Trying to hold your tears for a while

I know it does not mean any end

But it is not a beginning trend

I gather my courage to say your words “what’s next”

And snuggle like mere birds in a nest

We breathe in and say together

“I will always love you may come what ever”

And then we smile again

Something is holding us avoiding us to drain

We feel the pain

Yet we know our love hasn’t gone vain

We have promised

Promised to stay happy and blessed

You rub your face against my face

And we realize we are now out of every race

A race that could have divided our contact

Has lost to our love that’s forever intact...

 - Forever Love

Adios :-)